Ive been super super super stressed lately... theres just a lot going on. I got into a huge fight with jenn.. like yelling and everything. it was bad. im embarrassed that ken and dan saw me get so angry. i usually keep my cool pretty well i think. im moving out of the condo on tuesday, and im not sure how my relationship with jenn will stand after this. Dan has been looking at condos /townhouses for a while now, we should hear back from this one lady today. they placed a bid sometime last week. It seems like a nice place, sky lights and stuff in the living room. its definitely a lot brighter than the langer's condo... which is perpetually dark.

Im spending my day in the library today, i have a lot to get done. I have a debate on friday which i need to prepare for as well as write a paper for. I have a philosophy test on wednesday which is completely going to own my face. I have various comp work to do all the time as well as finish the reluctant fundamentalist and make sure i know all of the questions that go along with that. Im supposed to be reading 'the descent of women' for my people class. buuuut i ahvent bought that yet.. well actually i ahve, it just hasnt come yet. bitches. so yeah i have a lot to do on top of moving out  tomorrow, work, and the normal everyday stuff that i have to do. So after psych im going to prepare for comp and do all of the stuff ive been stacking on in the last week or so.. then im going to read the stuff in the debate book concerning my topic and hopefully start my paper. its going to be a long day.. and who knows maybe ill actually get something to eat in the mean time as well. we'll see.

alright, well i have to go to psych... so i guess ill update later on how all that went and whatnot.

So my life, although just drastically changed from before, has fallen into an unsteady routine. which may or may not seem contradictory to you. school does that though. it forces you to have a sort of schedule, like it or not. i don't mind. somehow i still fall asleep in ken's arms every night, which is exactly where i want/need to be. for the past two days i've been staying at his house, so he's gone for the better part of the day- at work. and in those hours i suppose i do whatever i can to occupy myself. yesterday, i felt horrible, completely uncomfortable and a pounding, light-burning-my eyes, everything-too-loud, nauseating migraine. i forcibly slept for most of the day, which lead to a heavy nyquil dosage at night to help me sleep more. today was different though. i feel better, and no head ache. so this morning i hung out with Ryan a little bit, came back to ken's house for lunch with him on his break, then he went to work again. i laid around, went online and stuff, we planned our night together, and then i went to Pitman. I tried calling Olivia to see if she wanted to go with me, but she didn't answer. no surprise there. its been raining all day, so i actually used my umbrella as i walked broadstreet. basically, all i was thinking about was all the stuff i could do with ken there. Like go to the ground house on an open mic night, eat at that new barcelona place. go to the bakery and get stuff to eat at the park, go to bobs hobby shop and pick up some arts and crafts stuff.. like some sort of model airplane or car to build together... or go to the pitman broadway place to see a movie.. eat spaghetti..lol..  go to the tea place and try a bunch of teas..  sit on a bench and drink lemonade. force him to try a bunch of chinese food at Ming Lok. lol, theres so much we could do. =] anyway, i walked down one side and walked back up the other. it took a little while, and in that while i got really damp, spite the umbrella. lol. when i got in my car, i defrosted the windows, which got a little foggy. and as i sat there, i saw this little boy, maybe 4th grade, shorts and a t-shirt, glasses speckled with rain, getting absolutely soaked. i watched him walk by my car, so i pulled out and then went around some other cars that were parked along the road, pulled back in, rolled down my passenger side window, and handed him my umbrella through it. he gave me a smile of gratitude, said thanks, and walked away, opening it. and then i pulled away as he turned the corner.

I'm going to spend the rest of my rainy day showing Ken how much he means to me. I am a lucky, lucky girl.