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good day

Thu, 11 Mar 2010 20:26:01 GMT

i love today. im just sitting here with dan talking, the weather is beautiful, kens on his way home.. everything right now is perfect and i wouldnt change it for the world.... which comes to my next thing.. theres no fucking way im transferring. at least not until i get my associates. i have way too much here, im way too happy with what i have and im definitely not ready to give that up just yet.

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Wed, 24 Feb 2010 20:44:48 GMT

Love is unconditional. Never regret what you have done for love.

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Wed, 24 Feb 2010 19:31:13 GMT

walking into school i noticed that ive never noticed something about stockton. and thats all of its rly super coool arcitecture. never noticed. i also noticed that i paid attention to the people around me.. i felt like i want to get to know everyone, so obviously i belong here in some way. maybe this wont be so bad afterall. i have my baby, i have a school where i could potentially be at the top of my class... i could make this work out to my advantage. im staying, here with my baby.

and we're gonna get married.

Lent

Wed, 17 Feb 2010 16:17:30 GMT

So i have this list of rules that I try to live by... and usually i focus on one a day.. but im going to try to do them all everyday. So thats what I'm doing for lent, i dont believe in god, but this is a perfect opportunity to take a set period of time and really work on myself. oh heres the list in case you were curious:

Ten Rules for Awesomeness
10. Take responsibility
9. Never complain
8. Build self image
7. Use an inside frame of reference
6. Accept things the way they are
5. Work on yourself- not others
4. Stop making up meaning
3. Learn from failure
2. Always seek the next level
1. Be the person you want to be

hey, why not?

Thu, 11 Feb 2010 14:10:29 GMT

Where do you go to shop for clothes?
Varies, depends on what I need.

Do you buy your own groceries?
yeah, we split it three ways

Do you think people talk about you behind you're back?
lol, who cares. i dont do anything mean to people on purpose.. so let them talk if they are.. which i doubt anyhow.

When's the last time you had a sour gummy worm?
pssss uhm at jenns graduation party last june.

Whats your favorite fruit?
strawberries and oranges

If there was a fire, what would be the first thing you would grab?
besides ken, my envelope of important stuff like birth cert, and social. etc.

Do you have a picture of yourself doing a cartwheel?
not that i know of

Do you play with legos?
only once in my life.. with olivia, november of 2007

Do you play with barbies?
never. i did play with trolls when i was little though

Who's your favorite Disney Princess?
dont have one

Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?
my love! kennybaby <3 =D

Would you rather have blue skin or purple skin?
lol, idk, depends what shade of each

Have you ever gotten a sunburn?
of course

Have you eaten snow?
mhm.

Have you watched Star Wars?
like half of one of them

Do you have a fuzzy pen?
no

Do you fix your bed?
sometimes

Do you wear slippers?
Nope, i like to be barefoot.

What is the coolest lamp you own?
the ones we have in the living room are pretty cool i guess.

What's your favorite flower?
lillies.

Did you go or do you want to go to prom?
I went to both.

What does your tissue box look like?
blue and swirly.

Did you ever open a lemonade stand?
when i was a little kid, yeah

Were you or are you in ballet?
nope

Do you listen to classical music?
sometimes when i drive.

What's the longest book you've read?
no idea.

What smiley best represents you?
? idk

Do you have a "wacky noodle"?
whats a wacky noodle? kens my wacky noodle. lawl

Do you have your own pool?
lol there a pool here, its not mine though D=

Do you watch Spongebob?
nah

What kind of car do you want?
mini cooper, cobalt.

Are you in advanced classes?
i was in high school, but here im just with everyone else.

Do people consider you as smart?
some do, others dont

Is your away message on?
i dont use aim anymore.

Do a lot of your friends have xanga?
no one.

Have you ever been to Jamaica?
Not yet

Have you ever tried gluing your fingers together?
yes

Can you skip stones?
not really

What's the weather like?
snowy

Are you happy?
yes.

Did you sing aloud today?
no

Have you taken a nap?
just woke up

What's the last thing you put in your mouth?
hahahaha last night was fun.

Last person you rode in a car with under the age of 20?
i have nooo idea

Can you play guitar hero?
not really

Last time you walked further than a block?
everyday

Do you believe ex's can be friends?
in rare occasions.

Do you like calling or texting better?
calling if its important, texting if its short and not so important.

How do you feel about Diet Dr Pepper?
never had it

When was the last time you cried really hard?
uhm like 2 weeks ago

Where is your biological father right now?
i was just talking to him, hes at home on the computer looking at plane tickets for me.

Where are you at right now?
our bed

Was yesterday better than today?
by far

Can you live a day without TV?
of course.

Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?
definitely

Would you share a drink with a stranger?
nah.

Do you think its right for straight guys to get their tongue pierced?
ive seen it done.. it has a gay connotation though.

How many times have you been pulled over by the police?
never

If we were to look in your inbox, what would we find?
in my phone? text messages to anne, olivia, ken, bo, frenchie, kens mom, joe yankus, dan, jackie, and jon mig

Will you have a valentine this year?
yes

How's your heart?
sold.

Someone knocks on your window at 2 am, who do you want it to be?
no one better be knocking on our window lol.

Wanna have kids before you’re 30?
yes def

Can you whistle?
yes.

Do you sleep on your side, stomach, or back?
stomach.

What gets in your way of your sleeping?being too hot, thinking too much

Are your eyes the same color as your mom's or dad's?
idk, somewhere in between. my dad has blue eyes, my mom has green eyes, and i have bluish green eyes.

Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?:
almost everyone ive ever met.

What was the last book you read?
like.. the stranger or something

Did you have an exciting last weekend?
yes, superbowl!

Have you ever crawled through a window?
Yeah.

Do you like yourself?
sometimes

Have you ever dyed your hair?
never

Are you wearing a necklace?
always<3

What's something that can always make you feel better?
ken

What do you want right now?
more time

Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing?
sure

Have you ever worked in a food place?
rt

Does anyone know your facebook password?
probably.

Wednesday, February 03, 2010

Wed, 03 Feb 2010 14:37:36 GMT

i have no idea what im doing with myself. i hate stockton. i hate my job. i hate feeling lazy and unmotivated.

happy

Fri, 29 Jan 2010 00:36:31 GMT

couldnt be happier right now. everything is great, i have my baby, i have good classes with awesome professors. all of the laundry is done, hahaha. i dont know, im just in a super good mood, i wish ken would get off of the game so that i could love on him. but i guess he'd rather fly the stupid airplane around.

oh! we're making a list of things to do this summer. date nights. =]

7

Sat, 23 Jan 2010 15:18:33 GMT

Seven months today.

School started. my schedule is all messed up. oh well, ill pick up the slack in the summer time.

im not in an overly good mood right not. tonight we're going to a party in margate, hopefully its fun. i have work in an hour and a half =/

Thank God it isn't snow.

Sun, 17 Jan 2010 19:49:05 GMT

School starts Wednesday, which happens to be Mr. Abaldo's birthday, who happened to have just emailed me a few days ago. He's one of the best people I have ever had the chance to meet. Along with Gerald from karate and of course my love, Ken. =] who just came in here trying to read this and I had to shoe him away so that I could finish.

Jenn is having a party tonight, she told Foley not to come because she wants to party with Dan. How fucked up is that? That would be the equivalent of Ken telling me to stay home while he goes out a parties with Stacy. Fuck that, people are nuts. And Dan isn't helping the situation by actually going to the party either. He's equally as fucked up right now... bc in my head thats like Neil telling Kelly not to come to a party and then inviting me. like..... what? that doesnt even make sense..

Friday afternoon I drove to Sharon Hill because I had nothing to do and neither did Jackie. So when i got there i picked her up and we went to the park to meet up with Eric and Kevman, just like old times. After sitting there for a few minutes I decided i wanted a buffalo chicken cheese steak from supreme, so we went over there and waited for them while having lunch. Jackie and i started talking about old times, which is really one of a few things we have to talk about since we're so different now. Then Eric and Kevin showed up. That opened up a whole new series of stories, where we all talked about where we met, our other friends we had at the time, and the stupid shit we used to do. After we were done taking up space at the pizza place, we went back to the park where Jackie and I said goodbye to the boys and got into my car. We went and got her stuff bc we decided it would be cool if she came and saw my place and spent the weekend there. Then we went to CVS and over to Dyer's. Chris was the only one there, he showed us pictures of his kids... its amazing what five years does to you. Mackenzie is 8! Ridiculous... then we went all the way back to my place. went food shopping, ken got mad at me for texting scott (whos birthday is also on wednesday). but thats a whole other issue that I wont write here. That night though, jackie got really weird so i took her home saturday morning. Saturday blew... i drove all day and then went to work. it sucked big time. but sunday morning was good. Ken and I mostly layed around, watched inglorious basterds and some of back to the future. I feel like im getting sick though... i have the laptop in our room, and he keeps coming in here because he thinks something is wrong, when really i just want to write this and lay down. Its raining and i want to be lazy.

thank god it isnt snow.

Nostalgia and Music

Fri, 15 Jan 2010 14:26:19 GMT

i dont know whats up with me this morning. i feel really nostalgic for like multiple parts of my life. it kinda started last night, we were all on the couches, jeremy was here too, and i was paying attention to each song and what it reminded me of. i thought of the group of us, eric, bigmac, dana, justin, jackie, and myself all just sitting at the track chillin, hanging out at like 10 at night. i thought of good times that ive had with jackie and felicia. good times that i had the summer before i left for jersey. all kinds of fun i had growing up. then i thought of olivia. she was absolutely the best friend that i have ever had, and although we were only close for about 6 months, those six months made my high school experience. i loved what we did and who i was that summer. i miss it. i regret letting olivia and i go the way we did, i regret that im not the person i was back then. i miss being spontaneous. but i guess thats growing up. i cant be overly spontaneous now, i have rent to pay and a boyfriend that i need to keep happy. which is fine, im not saying that we dont have fun bc we do. but its a different kind of fun. a kind of fun where you're always aware of yourself. i dont know if that makes sense, but to me it does. and i think that you cant completely have fun until u let go. and thats something i have a hard time doing lately.