video games are fuckin stupid.

I have a lot that i could be doing right now, none of which i feel any inclination to actually do. At the start of today i had 11-16 pages of paper to write for two classes, philosophy and understanding people, respectively. After maybe 2 hours of work i wrote four of those pages, leaving a possible 7 pages to go if i do the minimums, which i most likely will do. I feel no motivation to get either of them finished, as they are both due on monday. gay.

a lot has been going on in my head that i havent written in here, out of sheer lack of time and motivation. so i guess ill fill in some of the empty spaces as i wait for ken to get home from work, which should be any minute now. So ill start with the main thing, lately ive been seriously considering joining the military. i have my reasons, but none of that matters because ultimately i decided that i shouldnt join. partly because ken doesnt want me to, and otherwise because i sympathize with kens reasonings and feel the same way. I dont want to be deployed, i dont want to be separated from him for evem one night. so military is a no go. but i do need to make a change in school. im going to pick up some crim courses next semester adn see how i like it. if i like it a lot ill change my major and keep psychology as my minor. then ill join the police force later on.. then who knows.. fbi? cia? something cool for sure.

we've bought a bunch of things for the estate, aka our new apartment. dan, ken, and i have made trips to walmart, target, kmart, furniture stores, best buy.. all kinds of places and we've bought almost all of our kitchen necessities and bedroom stuff. and almost all of our bathroom stuff too. along with a sick blueray dvd surround sound thing and an entertainment center for the living room. we've spent crazy amounts of money, so hopefully when we move in itll feel a lot like home. settlement in tuesday, october 27th, and we'll move in hopefully that following weekend, if everything goes as planned.

ok well, kens home so i now have more important things to do. =]

oh. p.s.. my snowboard arrived today via fedex. its sweet. the bindings are extra nice too. =]

I woke up with this crazy feeling. I feel completely and utterly unmotivated for the day, i dont want to do anything! i have a lot of school work to do/ catch up on today, and i really just would rather not. So i have to leave for class in like 20-25 mins. then i have to read an article for psych, go to psych and take a quiz on it, then i have a 4 hour break- in which i need to read articles and write a thng for philosphy. which is my last class after comp which i did all the work i could do for. unmotivated... bad.

but good news, i dont have school tomorrow and i get to see kenny tonight. which always always always makes me feel 1000 times better.