well a lot has happened in the almost 2 months that i havent updated this. i couldnt remember the password to this site.. its usually just saved when i come here, so i never needed to remember it. i just gave up for a while. but i remembered this morning somehow, so here i am. so what has changed? well for one, i graduated high school. i feel like i would've had some crazy long post about it if i couldve gotten in here at the time. but for now im just gonna say that it was a time that ill never forget, of course. the delsea class of 2009 will always mean something huge to me. although graduation doesnt seem like that big of a deal now. project grad was awesome. i basically chilled with brian and alicia all night. which seems weird. we were a huge group in the beginning, just like senior trip, i but i guess we realized that big group wasnt gonna work and split up. and through people exchanging, somehow jenn and anne ended up hanging out and i hung with b and alicia. i had a great time, it was just weird that i wasnt with anne and jenn. there was this one ride thats kinda like the double shot in OC, that brian and i rode over and over and over again. good times.

what else? kelly. lets talk about kelly. at the end of the school year she pulled me over to the side of the hallway by rosa's room and said she needed to talk- broke down into tears about how she fucked everything up between us, and how her and gab arent as good of friends, and how she doesnt want to be with neil and how she told him that but he doesnt get it and blah blah. well, i comforted her, hugged her, and told her that her and i were fine. i really wanted kel and i to graduate as friends. and we did. i signed her year book all nicey-nice and everything. well then i go on facebook and get a notification that her and neil are "in a relationship" and as much as that shouldnt bother me, youre fucking right if u think it did. the bitch was telling me over and over how she didnt want to be with him and how she wanted me and her to patch things up and all, and then she goes and makes things more serious by puttin herself in an actual relationship with him. so i pressed the like button under the status. bc u know what? thats something that deserves a fucking sarcastic thumbs up. way to go, you lying whore. well then she commented me saying that i just like to comment on shit to start stuff. and all i said was "i hope that being with neil when you dont really want to be, fills the void that ryan left in you" so BOOM mother fucker. and then i took them both off of my face book so that i dont hear about anything about/from/pertaining to them. which leads me to my next thing.. im much happier now

why? kenny. i mentioned kenny once in the last post i made two months ago. well a lot has happened since then. for one, jenn stopped hanging out with us. the whole her and dan thing got really weird really quick. especially with jess in the picture. jess is this skinny brunette chick that dans seeing currently. anyway kenny and i do everything together basically. hes my wing man at boring grad parties, pancakes at the ground house, sitting by the lake, chocolate milkshakes at midnight, trips to parvins, drunken nights, movie nights, regular nights, he takes care of me when im sick, lets me try to drive his car, brings me places and introduces me to his family, he kisses me like he means it, and i swear i hold him like i never want to let go. in the last 2 months ive helped him through a break up, seen him through a stalker, and fallen for him hard myself. it happened fast, but its real, and its crazy.

i got a new tattoo on my foot, its a serotonin molecule. i like it. i forget that i have it all the time. jenn got one too. hers is like a celtic clover thing, tri-colored like my first one except with the german flag colors. its neat. ok.. im done with this. later.

oh and i deleted myspace. just sayin

wow its been forever since ive written in here. i dont have time for a real update now. im late to school. but its mid AP test week. so thats why i have been really busy. ill fill everything in when i get home tonight.